Listen to this poem (words alongside if you need them).
Janette: I’m trying to remember why I was created or at least, thats what Id like you to think. Because amnesia sounds a lot better than just plain ignorance. Well...even ignorance is defined as a lack of knowledge, see I’m just faking it. Pretending as if I don't know, when really I do. I felt less than what my designer thought was best. So I sup “pressed” who he super “natural”ly intended me to be no lie I got relaxed, then I combined, by “weaving” in a little bit of his will with a whole lot of mine. So how do i look? Cuz I think I look good! And yes, I know its not His original design I have Time, to change, Fix any minor things I may lack, Its not like He's coming back... tomorrow.
Whatever is wrong He can heal but I want the cattle on a thousand hills with the ability to take the wheel grasp will like Jacob to esaus heel, his love is based on how I feel, He loves me He loves me not, like pullin petals of flowers, yes Hes coming back but no man knows the day or the hour…?
Together: Where have you been. I've been at the altar, waiting For you...
Ezekiel: To repent... What happened you've...
Janette: Lost weight yes, I wanted to look good for you so I haven't been eating my Daily...
Ezekiel: Bread of heaven is who I am but its scary, I give u loaves of my word but you get by with the crumbs of commentaries. You needed...
Janette: I needed a make over... No one was attracted to me so I dressed up the gospel , stayed silent seeing sin saturate sanctuaries shadowing sight smoky eyes because you know…you are love,
Ezekiel: No, I am your "cover...girl"...I "make up" for your lacks and deficiencies, I'm your very “foundation”, see I blend with you perfectly, no need for concealer for I’m the revealer of all, don't you recall when I tore your veil?
Janette: So you’re saying you don’t like my lashes and you don’t like my nails) then
Ezekiel: You don't understand, you don’t understand, I took lashes for your lashes and nails for your nails but If I'm not gaining your heart, then I'm just losing time...cuz More than I want you to be outwardly beautiful, I need you to be mine,
Janette: Ok But we're here now so let's just go on with this ceremony
Ezekiel: Knowing… there will be no one in attendence? you never extended invitations. Too excited about the reception, and the gifts that you would get that you forgot my (presence).
Janette: (Presents) and dollar dances quarters nickels and
Ezekiel: the world could keep their dimes, pieces of silver don't impress me...don't forget what happened to Judas...
Janette: you just failed to see that I've changed, i admit I grew distant I lost sight of you the absolute value missing the sin so now with ignorance at times i cosin unable to stay away from tangents, I thought I had the “right” angle.
Ezekiel: look I know ur heart has been broken but if you can Keep your eyes “fixed” on me I can re-pair us. And we will be one no longer be Fractions. Being dominated by denominations
Janette: Yet i choose to stay Divided like palestinian nations
Ezekiel: yes, ur fouls have been flagrant, your fouls have been flagrant but I am positive I'm the one for you! But we equal nothing if u continue to be the negative one in this Equation
Together: Can you sense... my frustration
Janette: You are Holy, so I impose what’s legalistic, making appeals for what you already acquitted, obessesed with overruling your objections purposely plucking purpose
Ezekiel: professing prosperity, practicing pride, prosecuting people persistently, and when u became the Judge, you took away the Saint’s defense and see you've silenced the miraculous testimonies of my witness, so no one’s ever convicted, yet so many of children are turned away from life because you condemn them with your death penalty sentence
Janette: not all of them, which reminds me.. about their entrance, In the lambs book of life some names u may have skipped, with attendance I stamp their wrists so that they can get in. The VIP section, we don't address their sin, neither do we offend, bouncers don't trip on those who abundantly give, all of their praying grandmothers had a plus one on the list.
Ezekiel: well Tell them, they wont see me, by visiting you routinely
Be the example,
That you need relationship with me You are more than stained glassed windows, pulpits, pew and singers ‘cause If you want to see my church, just Look in the mirror
Janette: but you wanted me to be fine, perfect, righteous, and eloquent. But this land seemed desolate and needed development, I exceeded your budget so I withdrew from Tyras “bank” and continued to remodel staying culturally relevant, my girl Katrina called said hurricanes and hard times came and you didn’t make yourself evident
Ezekiel:but I told you I would never leave thee nor forsake thee
Janette: I hear you but I had immediate needs, .
Ezekiel: but promised that you would…
Ezekiel: wait for me
Janette: Wait for you?
By the way what happened to your ring?
Janette: my ring?
Ezekiel: you don't remember the ring when I called you out of darkness into marvelous things. You wear it IN you not ON you, it was my spirit, my sign to, and remind you AND your ex who you really belong to.
Janette: My ring, I pawned for money to get back to who I thought was my first love: he spoke to me with words so sweet.. he “waves” and I feel the “shore”ness of my wrong decision shifting my view, He wanted me to “sea” breeze so I could forget where the “Son” sets next, I was convinced I didn’t need to repent of my sin, He told me he could wash me with the “Tide” that was coming in. the weather was pleasant on the Atlantic surface but as I got to His core the temperature drastically changed yes, I contacted an STD, he “burned” me at 9,800 degrees. He was my earth, he wasmy world I'm sorry to tell you but there's more
Ezekiel:Did u think I wouldn't notice... the symptoms and the signs, and your unexplainable cravings for sin of all kinds, even had trouble sleeping
Janette: Weeping may endure for a night but joy didn’t come in the morning sickness. So in my shame and my mourning you witnessed me take the pill for the morning after coincidently located right next to my box of alabaster, I was to shameful to bring forth Al a bast…
Ezekiel: Stirred lies of wicked men's tongues started deceivin you, then automatically planted the seeds of deceit in you, And when u were pregnant with falsehood it became impossible to “conceive” the truth
Janette: (The truth) made me free but I ran back to what was comfortable being enslaved a mind depraved, I'm sure you don’t want me now. Im not worth the price u paid....
Ezekiel: They flogged me with whips,that left my flesh stripped, I was Beat with their instruments, rhythmically, which caused my skin, I bleed symphonies, I can still remember the hooks, Like a chorus, and those weren't just 66 letters they were musical scores, which contained the every note to keep us on one accord, for, you, to always have the right keys to my hearts doors
Janette: I just wanted a sample repeat sin like loopin 8 bars, on my own tempo I embarked, Instead of following your instrumentation i drown out your heartbeat of tympani, and strings of harmonies, ignore the woodwinds of your spirit, if your trumpet sounds I wont hear it or even the brass ring, cuz ive layed tracks and tracks of acapella but so i can hear myself sing, majoring in minor, has left me scratched like broken records, causing my life to, causing my life to, causing my life to --- stutter, im an false instructor pretending as if im watching the conductor, I'm too unlawful to be your wife and probably never recover....
Ezekiel: My WILL, was put to the test, when I had to choose to escape glory to escape in glory, or bear torment upon my flesh, YOU, were the reason I embraced that rugged cross, like my child, whom was long lost ,MARRY, my own mother could even recognize disfigured the face of her son. ME, is what I gave you on calvary when It was done.
I told you I loved you, how much, well I showed you ,You called it crucifixion, I call it "proposal" WILL YOU MARRY Me... You don't need a third party u have direct access to me, and we won't ever have to worry about remembering our anniversary, because I've yet to find a calendar with a date for eternity.
Janette: I, need, your
Ezekiel: GRACE and MERCY is what I lavish upon, there's a recession of my presence, I see the demand so I supply the missing peace that your heart demands , And then
Janette: some cry over spilled milk I weep over spilled...
Ezekiel: Blood that could not be measured in pints to count
Together: (my love)
Janette: was contingent on what was instant
Together: I know I had to come
Janette: to repentance
Ezekiel: Father, forgive them for they know not what they do
Janette:Father forgive me for I know not what Ive done
Janette: Ill get myself together I’ll clean myself up
Ezekiel: Please, allow me, im the only one who can make you clean
Together: Without Spot Wrinkle Without Blemish
Ezekiel:Your bridesmaids goodness and mercy will follow u, it is already finished It was you who I chose even though I called many. I am coming back for you
Together: Will you be ready OR NOT???